A while back, I shot behind the scenes for a silent film starring/directed/produced by a guy named Vlad Kozlov. He offered me a great rate to take it on as a regular gig, but I didn’t want to deal with another long-running disorganized one-camera “reality show” after two years of doing something very similar. I got paid for my day’s work, shipped him back the hard drive that we had for data transfer, and I thought that was the end of it.
Fast forward to 1:30 this morning:
…that would pay extremely well, but probably completely take over my life and burn me out. I’m not particularly in love with the project itself, it will not give me any significant connections or advance my skills, but the compensation is very good.
I just finished doing that exact same thing for two straight years. I thought I’d have a few months to take odd gigs, go on adventures, and make new connections before another one of these things came up. So far, I’ve done it for one month, and it’s been great. I’ve made more incredible work contacts in the past month than I have in the past year.
I’m at a tipping point between “holy shit, that would be $x per month!” and “I can’t nail myself down to something that’s probably another lateral move in my career”. I can’t tell if it’s stupid to turn down the money, or more stupid to turn down opportunities for myself.
Hollywood needs a wise old Beard&Frames guru who specializes in fielding these dilemmas. He’d live on top of Mt. Lee, and tell stories about being a PA on Gone With the Wind.